How could I but love you if only just for those?

1/5/07

Hello, My Darling Che-Che,

I think you may wonder at why I love you like I do. Look at our situation from my point of view towards understanding.

You are young and beautiful. You are warm and enthusiastic. You have accepted my wisdom and thoughts and even worked with some of them. You have revealed yourself both physically and emotionally to me over some two years. I get to spend hour after hour just looking at you, studying your form and shape and working out a design that reflects you. You helped me make breakthroughs in my art like getting your eyes perfect and learning how to make your skin color consistent throughout. And, what a lovely skin color it is!

How could I but love you if only just for those?

As time went by, I was always excited when your emails came in and I would stop everything I was doing to read them, sometimes many times over. Your words reached across the miles and time zones and spoke clearly about how you cared about me and you provided prayers of goodness and joy.

How could I but love you if only just for those?

When I became ill, you stepped forward and came to my side. You spoke to me with words of encouragement wrapped in love. You became my support as I had been for you over the months we knew each other. You were kind and gentle toward me during a most difficult time in my life. You held me in your arms—though far away—and I was at peace. You gave me hope wrapped in love, a gift like no other. You gave me courage to fight on and to rise above my physical state and to conquer it. You gave me the most blessed gift of all; you gave me you.

How could I but love you if only just for those?

Then, as time wore on, you told me more about the deeper parts of you. You explained some of your needs and desires and even showed me what they looked like. You offered thoughts and feelings about yourself to me that no one had heard from you, ever. Your words and pictures struck a musical chord inside of me as what you said and what you showed me was exactly who I had been looking for all my life. You selected me as the storehouse of all you said and allowed me to be the one to understand and appreciate you.

How could I but love you if only just for those?

And now, when you accepted my offer to live with me for the rest of our lives, you did so willingly and seemingly without doubts or fears. You have dreamed of living in America all your life and I am the one who may well make that possible. That you agreed so easily and quickly is a testament to your trust and faith in me, some things few people ever enjoy with someone else. That you were searching for someone like me and I for someone like you for such along time and that the search was over surely brought a flood of relief for both of us. I know I sleep better, now, how about you? A new chapter opened in my life when you came along and if truth be known, you allowed me to spend time with you, after sitting on your doorstep until you invited me in. I tell you, I was not going away until you either said “yes or no.” You allowed me to quietly pursue you. You watched how I responded to you. You read my words, tried them out, found them workable and welcomed me to offer more.

How could I but love you if only just for those?

You see, CC, you gained respect for me and reflected that in all you said and did. You showed me I was worthy of your glance and of a place next to you at the banquet of life. You waved me over and spoke in low tones of how you felt about me. You placed your warm hand in mine. You caressed my cheek, smoothed my brow and looked deeply into my eyes and said, “I love you.”

How could I but love you if only just for those?

I love you, My Precious CC…